disgusting arrangement of time at the end

1. Barefoot Gibong | A film with such a heart.  A slightly disfigured / handicapped guy, who loves to run.  Alone, running barefooted on the streets of a small town Korea,  he runs from one end to another to do simple tasks to earn some cash or food for the person he love most of his life, his mother. And with a small opportunity to win some cash, he joins a racing tournament, for him to be able to buy his mother a set of false teeth. Uneducated but never putting a out a face of anger to a slightly harsh world that surrounds him.  This film is not even close to "Rainman" or "I am Sam," but it will surely make you cry.  This is more of a feel-good movie.  You seldom feel good about the fact that it makes you cry, but this film does offer such a heart.  It offers a bit of laugh, alot of happiness, and the fact that it'll make you cry and think of all those people that cared and love for you, and wishing that you'd do the same thing for them, well, i see this as a good film, that appeals to all person.  Even the heartless kind.

RATING: 9/10      Music and Soundtrack: 4/5    

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1. 16 Blocks | A criminal turned state witness and a cop goes head to head with the most corrupt organization within the NYPD.   They need to get across 16 blocks for 118 minutes to get the witness' testimony on the stand.  Going against a notorious corrupt ring of policemen, well as we know, it's not a pretty thought at all.  But suddenly the plot thickens.  Quite an interesting twists and turns in this story, that will get your head ducking bullets.

Bruce Willis portrayed the slightly overweight old cop, usually his got this wasted look as always.  You've seen it before. Imagine his image on Die Hard movie combined with Sixth sense's character, and voila, instant wasted cop.  The only difference with Die Hard is he's in a good looking suit.  Anyway... Mos Def, portraying a common thug who'll play the part of as a witness against a corrupt cop, he witness killing someone.  He's quite fit for the role, he's got that gangster attitude, the usual tripper and a sensitive side, eager to have a better life than what he has. Plus, you've got David Morse, the typical bad guy.  Mellow down, cunning, plus he looks good on a suit.  I love his brown coat and light blue shirt under it, the tie fits perfectly too.  I bet it'll look good on me. 

The story was really good, I mean, the twists were really interesting.  Well, it's just a simple action and thriller film. and if you want a movie with guns, cops and constant running? you'd want this one.  Good guys and bad guys, shooting each other, it's one of those films that most men would enjoy, without the painful thinking.  The sound was really great.  If you've bought the DVD, you'd really love how the sound effects were perfectly carved. You could hear the gun shots as if you were there.  I especially loved the panning of sounds, that when they move, you could actually hear the sound move with you.  If you have those 5.1 speakers or home theater setup, and you're into sound clarity, buy this film. Perfect clear sound, beautiful soundscape, musical score that will really get you in the mood.  The actors really portrayed their roles well, especially Mos Def.  There was one scene where he was about to be framed, with gun and then he later on they'd shoot him, he portrayed that part well.  You don't just stand or pretend scared to a gun point, you really have to fear the gun, fear death.  You could really see him, giving this crying sound and bending as if he wants to get away from this all, it was really a good performance.  He really can act. It's not just the look, I mean, most rappers if they played the part, it's all about being COOL, well here, you can see that he played the part of a person where he can actually commit a crime and at the same time had that emotions that most people show when they're in a state of fear, sadness... The only movie I've seen with this kind of emotion portrayed perfect, was of Saving Private Ryan. 

Though I have to say, there was some inconsistencies within the movie.  I had to comment with its timing.  Basically, it a race through time, they have at least two hours, but they acted and set the area which overlasped the time.  Considering the area, you have 16 blocks, at least more than 10 blocks they'd have to walk, right? Bruce's character was this typical obese cop, with a bad knee, plus he get shot in his hand.  If you've been shot in the hand, you'd really feel the pain, you can't walk that fast.  The dialogues are over the set time frame, you'd notice constant views of the clock and it doesn't add up.  You'd go up a building which is located in New York, most building with elevators are 5 stories high, Ground floor has at least 4-5 meters height,  succeeding floor has 3 meters, and a stair thread of .20 meters average, how fast can an obese cop, with a bad knee, go up a stair so fast?  Plus you have dialogues which has at least 10 minutes worth of exchanged words,  How can you comply with the 10:00 Am deadline?  This was overlooked on the film though.  But if you're not that attentive with this kinds of situation, it won't matter.

Other than that, the film was really good for action/thriller enthusiasts.  It's a nice film, the dialogue just doesn't fit the time frame, that's all.

RATING: 8/10      Music and Soundtrack: 4/5    

| Today was no one’s birthday. |

So here I was facing them, right?

And then, “BAM!”  Fuck you! Fuck you! And you! “BAM! BAM! BAM!”

Putang Ina ka! BAKLA! Bakla! Mga bakla, magkantutan kayo! Puwetin nyo isa’t isa. Tang ina kayong lahat.

[You’re a whore of a mother! Faggot! Faggot! You all are faggots, fuck each other! Fuck each other’s ass.  All of you are whores of a mother.]

These words kept ringing in my head.  I just shot 4 guys, man and it was so relieving. Goddamn relieving.  For year I’ve been kept like an animal to a cage.  Fuck!

Slowly sobbing my tears, wiping it with blood drenched hankies that I got from that fucking faggot.

I just want respect man, I need some respect… Yeah? Maybe some love too.  Why should everyone else be happy while I’m not? Fuck man, fuck! I just shot 4 guys man. 

Shit man, shit.  I woke up with nothing, no hopes, dreams or anything that would compel me to live another day. Fuck man… fuck you.

I just shot 4 guys… Shoved the gun up of his forehead… Pare. Sabog! Wham! Puta pare, it was cool… Shit man. You can see how he bleeds pare.  Speechless, eyes that stared back as if he’d seen the afterlife; he went down fast enough for me to be able to point it to the rest of those faggots. Fuck man! Fuck! Ha ha ha ha ha.

I’d just shoot anyone who crosses my path.

“Dude… We don’t want any problems.”  This guy was begging for his life? So you know what I did? I shot him on his left knee.

Fuck you all.

Then there were these two fags, they tried to take the gun but I was faster than shit.  Think Flash with an attitude.  A fucking pissed off attitude. 

Putang ina, Degenerates.  I was pushing off this faggot’s face, pressing it away to a wall, while this fuck was grabbing the gun off my hand. 

Why should they be happy? Why should anyone be happy, and I’m not?

Fuck you! I woke up with nothing to care about, nobody loves me, and nobody gives a fuck!

Today’s my birthday, and I hope everybody dies! I hope today, everybody dies!

Everybody dies.  Fuck.

I’m having a personal crisis and I’m taking it all out on you. Bitches, whores, degenerates, cool, famous, rich. 

Everyone, everyone will die today.

Slamming him down on a brick wall with molds that’s been growing of thousand of men’s piss, spit and probably blood from victims that fell by this section of the wall, I felt on top.  I felt a sudden power trip.  I’m God for now, and I’m in control.

Kicked the other faggot by his fucking genitals, I let a good kick to his left nuts.  And as I pressed this faggot by the wall, my fingers up his eye sockets, I could hear that faggot on the left still whining like a rape victim.  So, I shot him on his head. 

BAM!

I felt a sudden rush.  I’m the master now, and I decide who goes down and who doesn’t.

Today… Today is my birthday.  I decide who dies today.

Shut it! You fuck!  My fingers punctured his eyes of his eye sockets.  I was fucking cool, man…  I just want to be God, today.  And this is happy.  This is so fucking right!  I wasn’t enough.  I had to use my thumbs. 

“Please… please… please… “He’s crying, begging me to stop.  Not today.  I’m not yet thru! Today everybody dies.  I pressed deeper down his eye sockets. I’m having the time of my life.

“Mama! Mama!”  Such a bitch.  Most men cry for their mother whenever they know they’re dying.

I had none.  Why should I care?  I had none. 

I’m not done.

I started kicking this guy by a corner.  He was laying down, his back on the trash bin that stood 1.5 meters from the pavement that’s been blackened by grease that leaked from trucks that had been parked on this alley.

“Please… man, I’ve had enough… please… today’s my birthday man… please. I don’t want to die.”

Birthday?   Fuck you! Today’s my birthday and not yours. Not anyone of you.

Not anyone of you… I felt crying.  Why should they be happy and not me?

BAM! BAM! And two more shot to end the day.

Today… Today…

Today, no one had a birthday.  Why should anyone be happy? Cakes? Parties? I never had any of those.  I never had any.  Not once. 

Why should anyone be happy and not me?

Today… Today… Today…

Today was really not a good day, nor any other day.

Why should everyone be happy…

And not me.

In my days of composing my own music, aspiring to be a musical scorer for films, commercials/ advertisements, animations, i've come to a point where i thought of releasing my works available for download and hopefully to sell it.  I've always been wanting to be a real musical scorer, one that works side by side to famous indie films that are right now abundant in the market.  I've specialized my skills in producing sounds that fits perfect to a scene.  In making such tracks its not as easy as people had thought about it.  Once, someone commented on the music we're making and said, we had no skills at all, it's basically drag and drop.  Drag a loop here then it's done.  Sad to inform them, it's not that easy, it requires much more skills than they've ever thought of.  You should be able to create music, knowledge about instruments is really required.  Say for example, you have a synth or VST plug in that can produce a violin sound, you'd still need to emulate or simulate the real thing.  Most electronic music you hear, lack a certain aspect.  They need to have a sense of space if you're to produce or simulate the real thing, otherwise if you want to sound electronic, you can simply do without a sense of space. 

There are lots of category with regards to electronic music. We have dance/trance musicians, Industrial/Dark Electronica, Easy listening or you can create a new genre.  You can be anyone you want.  So long you have an ability and you really pursue making music.  In my case, I choose creating soundtracks, and trying to pro-create the sound as the real thing.  This requires one thing that most music listeners or starting bands don't really consider [though some are quite good to consider this], mastering the track.

I, myself is still on the point of learning things.  I haven't even had the full potential of mastering such things.  For example, if you played your TV and you Radio at the same time, you listen to the part where you could hear the radio commercial, simultaenous with any TV shows, and you'd notice that you'd hear the radio commercial over the TV sound.  This requires knowledge with compression, this is but one of the parts you'd need to learn about mastering.  Even in recording guitar tracks to your voice, need special knowledge.  You'd really have to learn about all this things. 

Well, that part is not really the topic here.  Recently, i've made some songs or as i call it, filler.  These are tracks that connects all songs together.  Think of it as one short film, connected in scenic music representation.  It tells the story through loops, notes instruments, giving you the sense of its drama.  I've uploaded filler no. 3, entitled; 2 minutes of Self-Suffocation. 

This is a filler connecting track two and three.  If you've ever had those points in your life where you suffocate yourself.  Suffocate in a sense that you try to blame yourself of things that you've done to fuck up your life or a situation.  Things that you've been regretting, blaming your negligence or others, of things that got out of your hand.  This gives you that dismantled feeling of sound, ridiculing your idea of yourself being pathetic and in some way recovering out of it.  And all you need to do is really forget about it, and forgive yourself.

The album was entitled; Theme songs for a thousand wounded hearts.  Songs that emotionally attacks your sadness, hurt and blames, but in the end it'll providing you a new landscape; a new world or you eat yourself up to a much more deeper hole; the darkness.  The outcome of these tracks will determine my next album.  A consumation of your sadness and recovery, depicted to sounds.  All songs will be described in written words, for you to have an idea how and why such track was produced or why the choices of sounds was prefered to depict a point in your life's down position.

Right now, i've composed 4 tracks on this EP, and just finishing one of the tracks; Sui Fen Ni [tales of one summer's fragrant bloom].  I've posted it with my soundplayer here in Buzznet.  I'll be posting all the necessary backdraft to the songs here for more informations who will be downloading the full album.

But i'm thinking... Why not sell it?

Link:

http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?songs=271091&T=8286 

I've just posted the song on Acidplanet and Buzznet.  This was the song I've been mentioning on my past journal pages.  I was and still stuck with this song.. I can't seem to figure out what to do next. anyway.. here's some info about it.

taken from acidplanet's song page [ http://www.acidplanet.com/bleedingboysoundtrack ]

i've been busy. I've been stuck to a song, it seems its hard to compose these past few weeks. I've recently bought an M-Audio Oxygen8 v2, and tried it out on this song i've been making. It's mostly piano for now, and I have no plans of releasing it full on acidplanet. This is the last track to an EP, to be release on QED records. 'Tis an unfinished song, it's not entirely furnished.

the saddest part of falling for someone is realizing that she's not in to you. She's not meant for you, but at least the summer that covers the whole scenic view of a thousand sunflower's directing it's light. Most flowers dies down on summer or fall, but I've imagine a breeze that comes from the west to take off the heat. at least the fact that you've fallen to a sudden halt and imagine her in your best effort to convince her, you're worth the love. sad to say this is not as always. At least you have a song to accompany the drama. Think of her going away, but at least you had the best of times, when you were falling for her. Give it a smile, It's worth it.. a soundtrack to a fading sun, just across the horizon."

special thanks to Guada Salanga, [photographer]

| LINK |

http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?PID=839874&t=4613

Recently, I bought several dvds. Mostly asian films, I've got tired of those hollywood films, they've resorted to visuals rather than the story lines and conventional way of making a film.  Though several movies have developed their visual technique, they've compromised good story lines.  Bring back movies like Romeo and Juliet, an artful display of fast forward stop and removing the sense of a prolonged scene and getting straight to the point.  Though I love ridley scott's [or was it his brother?] approach with "A MAN ON FIRE." a very unique way of showing a film, with those text that pops out like commercials, and soundtracks that varied from a "mariachi's" melodrama to Trent Reznor's distorted "Oye Como Va," and a spanish version of "Mickey." giving much a unique style of both visual and ambient feel, makes you want to just go inside and be in the film.  Plus a stunning acting from Denzel Washington and Dakota Fanning.  NOW, if they make good movies like that again, let me know.. recently, they lack story lines, sure they've got such good dialogues, but remaking asian films and adding too much special effects on it, [i.e. The Ring], it really doesn't give us that "hooked" feeling.  Either way, I still give my respect to those directors, actors and all those who are engaged in making films.  I've seen several dramatic films that really grasp my attention.  Sad to say when you get tired of things, you tend to search for a new satisfaction, and when you've reach this level, sometimes it's really hard to be satisfied by basic or in some case, same old styles. But nevertheless, let's continue.

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1. Daisy | it has guns, girl, and painting? what the fuck? ok... ok... this is a good film.  PG-13, so bring your kids from 13 and up.  I love the mala- MONSTER [Anime] style of telling a story, they let all characters meet first then they subdivide it, and give all 3 characters, to tell their story in their own point of view.  The visual color used is really dramatic, plus a nice choice for a film-setting placed around Europe.  If you know the movie "SASSY GIRL", then you'd want to watch this, the girl is actually, that sassy girl.  She'd grown and I really would say, had improved her talent, especially with parts that doesn't require her to speak.  Set on a European plaza as a backdraft, an assassin and an interpol fell inlove with the same girl.  The story revolves, and you'd really want to see it.

RATING: 10/10      Music and Soundtrack: 4/5    

2. Shinobi | if you're into that hit anime series on TV, NARUTO. You'll love this one.  I was kind of frustrated, over the fact that it was less than interesting or "breathtaking" as Azumi was.  I was thinking, this is part of Japanese History. It turns out it was just a basic beautification of a culture.  Shinobi, as considered to be a dark arts common among ninja clans.  But sad to say, it wasn't informative, but rather just some plain, slash, dash and kill, with matching powers that can equal to immortality.  Though each ninja has different and interesting skills, I wasn't that much amazed about it.  But nevertheless, its one of those film that you'd just want to watch because of its cool effect, perfect for younger generations.  Oh, think of it as Brad Pitt [OCEAN 11's style] cross-over with Azumi.  They've got a good sense of fashion for ninjas, hahahaha.  I thought ninjas only wore black and everything is black.  If they wore tie, its black. Nails? black.  I bet their teeth are black too. hahaha. Just kidding. Still if you just want to relax and enjoy a good movie, this one will satisfy you. keeps you off that chatting channels waiting for someone to turn on their webcams and strip in front a thousand audience, crossing the seas and ocean.

RATING: 7/10     Music and Soundtrack: 3/5

I love bob marley's music. gets you in the mood for your roots, not in a sense that you have to pretend rasta, no. it just makes you want to love freedom, tracing back your own identity. now that's the sense of what he's been singing about. a man's struggle for freedom. a man's look for peace amidst the chaos and corruption that's been gripping us.  nescience, is not an option. we must understand how rasta language is spoken, what it means. so here, i've posted a dictionary for people to be able to learn rasta or patois language.

[copied from: http://www.rockol.it/rockol/reggae/dizio.htm]

Sources:

ZION
Ethiopia, Africa, the Rastafarian holy land (1)

ZUNGU PAN
zinc pan. (5)

everything is lame... i must have counted the eggs before it even hatched. fuck!

i'm stuck! why? because I'm stuck! it's the common problem in making music... there are lots of dead ends.  Now i feel like i should leave that track again.  It's been awhile since that happened.  I'm starting to give up on a track that i found to be so interesting.  Why? i don't know why. probably the fact, that my inspiration, sucks so much ass.

I give up!

I want to do hardcore music again, but i have to finish the fourth and last track for me to be able to release with Electronica Manila: two and QED records. but instead, i'm skipping hoops and tracks again... Goddamn it.

No! don't tell me prayers would do with this... it has nothing to do with praying, it's simple as, I want to hold the only moments I treasure, regarding a track and channel it as a note on a midi sheet. then reproduce, emulate, assimilate the sound and you shouldn't be succumbed within the apocrypha of your notes. they're just notes to a song, they're not your life.

as fall out boy's song stated "i'm just a nudge in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song."

she is but a line in my song!

I miss zhang ping! if she was here, and i could see her, i'd be able to make the track without holding back.  At least that girl gave me inspiration.  While this one, God, she's lamer than a post, she's too numb for me. she can't feel me, she can't see me. and worst of all, I don't need her, really.  She's just an excuse, a scapegoat. but reality is, she's not my interest. if she was before, not anymore.

I'm bored of her... I'm glad I don't see her everyday...

I'm tired of her... I'm glad I don't need her in anyway...

But isn't it? when you're bored, you make music?

["you see i'm bored, but you move me, like music..."] -deftone; MX.

But never the less, I have no choice but to cancel the music... Fragrance lost in a mist...

I'm tired of that sound.. hope it sucks donkey dick! Got to find a certain shape to a song... Got to find the meaning to create sound again... again... again... I can't find her... I can't find her... I need something... Give me anything... I need to make music... I can't find her... I need to be... I can't find her.. Fuck, why won't you let me! I can't find her... I want to be... I can't find her... I wish to be... I can't find her...

I CAN'T FIND HER!

alas, i'm back to what i'm supposed to be.

[ and the silence pricked my eardrum, much more deafening than the noises i make.]

Recently I asked a question to a friend linked here and saw that her school's name was a primary school with SWASTIKA as part of its name. I was really shock, WOAH? is this an anti-semite school? Sorry to question such thing.  But further inquiries demands research before I talked and wonder about it in a bad way.  So as part of my research I've searched the net and found the history behind the SWASTIKA symbol.

Swastika, is suppose to represent power, sun, good luck.  Now thinking back, we know that Swastika was a symbol that gone wrong due to some men's ideology.  I never really hated Hitler's idea of struggle but the part where he started killing people, inspiring racism, there I stood against such things.  I normally don't talk about this but things need to be clarified.

The Oldest Known Symbol

The swastika is an ancient symbol that has been used for over 3,000 years. (That even predates the ancient Egyptian symbol, the Ankh!) Artifacts such as pottery and coins from ancient Troy show that the swastika was a commonly used symbol as far back as 1000 BCE.

During the following thousand years, the image of the swastika was used by many cultures around the world, including in China, Japan, India, and southern Europe. By the Middle Ages, the swastika was a well known, if not commonly used, symbol but was called by many different names:

• China - wan
• England - fylfot
• Germany - Hakenkreuz
• Greece - tetraskelion and gammadion
• India - swastika

Though it is not known for exactly how long, Native Americans also have long used the symbol of the swastika.

The Original Meaning

The word "swastika" comes from the Sanskrit svastika - "su" meaning "good," "asti" meaning "to be," and "ka" as a suffix.

Until the Nazis used this symbol, the swastika was used by many cultures throughout the past 3,000 years to represent life, sun, power, strength, and good luck.

Even in the early twentieth century, the swastika was still a symbol with positive connotations. For instance, the swastika was a common decoration that often adorned cigarette cases, postcards, coins, and buildings. During World War I, the swastika could even be found on the shoulder patches of the American 45th Division and on the Finnish air force until after World War II.

From Jennifer Rosenberg, http://history1900s.about.com/cs/swastika/a/swastikahistory.htm

If you read what is written above, we can see how the symbol symbolizes the good part of life. bring power, promoting good and giving people luck in battle, struggle and a search for strength.

Then further on, as I've learned and analyze the world's history, people used it to represent race against other races.  And as noted to several people against such symbol, and retaliated in forms of documents, articles and songs.  Attacking the very source of strength, a part of a flag that stood against every other things. 

Rage Against the Machine's song Bullet in Your Head included the swastika as part of a song, "A YELLOW RIBBON instead of a SWASTIKA..." the use of the color yellow against or in replace of a swastika, was a change of symbolism to remove the hate and death it left after a war that tore the world apart.

in further words from Jennifer Rosenberg;

A Change in Meaning

In the 1800s, countries around Germany were growing much larger, forming empires; yet Germany was not a unified country until 1871. To counter the feeling of vulnerability and the stigma of youth, German nationalists in the mid-nineteenth century began to use the swastika, because it had ancient Aryan/Indian origins, to represent a long Germanic/Aryan history.

By the end of the nineteenth century, the swastika could be found on nationalist German volkisch periodicals and was the official emblem of the German Gymnasts' League.

In the beginning of the twentieth century, the swastika was a common symbol of German nationalism and could be found in a multitude of places such as the emblem for the Wandervogel, a German youth movement; on Joerg Lanz von Liebenfels' antisemitic periodical Ostara; on various Freikorps units; and as an emblem of the Thule Society.

Hitler and the Nazis

In 1920, Adolf Hitler decided that the Nazi Party needed its own insignia and flag. For Hitler, the new flag had to be "a symbol of our own struggle" as well as "highly effective as a poster." (Mein Kampf, pg. 495)

On August 7, 1920, at the Salzburg Congress, this flag became the official emblem of the Nazi Party.

In Mein Kampf, Hitler described the Nazis' new flag: "In red we see the social idea of the movement, in white the nationalistic idea, in the swastika the mission of the struggle for the victory of the Aryan man, and, by the same token, the victory of the idea of creative work, which as such always has been and always will be anti-Semitic." (pg. 496-497)

Because of the Nazis' flag, the swastika soon became a symbol of hate, antisemitism, violence, death, and murder.

What Does the Swastika Mean Now?

There is a great debate as to what the swastika means now. For 3,000 years, the swastika meant life and good luck. But because of the Nazis, it has also taken on a meaning of death and hate.

These conflicting meanings are causing problems in today's society. For Buddhists and Hindus, the swastika is a very religious symbol that is commonly used. Chirag Badlani shares a story about one time when he went to make some photocopies of some Hindu Gods for his temple. While standing in line to pay for the photocopies, some people behind him in line noticed that one of the pictures had a swastika. They called him a Nazi.

Unfortunately, the Nazis were so effective at their use of the swastika emblem, that many do not even know any other meaning for the swastika. Can there be two completely opposite meanings for one symbol?

In ancient times, the direction of the swastika was interchangeable as can be seen on an ancient Chinese silk drawing.

Some cultures in the past had differentiated between the clockwise swastika and the counter-clockwise sauvastika. In these cultures the swastika symbolized health and life while the sauvastika took on a mystical meaning of bad-luck or misfortune.

But since the Nazis use of the swastika, some people are trying to differentiate the two meanings of the swastika by varying its direction - trying to make the clockwise, Nazi version of the swastika mean hate and death while the counter-clockwise version would hold the ancient meaning of the symbol, life and good-luck. function obL(a){if(a

This is but an article to clarify things, this is not to offend or provoke any racial discrimination, hate or any other things.  I'm a man who believes could be attain if we put aside our differences, after all, sting had sang in one of his song, "we share the same biology, regardless of ideology..." [ Sting - Russian ].  We share the same planet after all

I'm having trouble composing this song.  I want it to sound chill out but with that classical touch. I don't want to sound like Enya, though.  I tried to emulate tool's triad style of reverberating noises from guitars, but sad to say, that's just not my style. so instead i've made it with my strength in piano playing.  I've been mixing it for about 3 days now.  I've only made at least 2min24sec of the track.  I don't want it to sound too long, but I want it to stick in your head, giving you that feel good feeling.  Ever had those morning when you wake up to a sunrise that's pretty much adoreable that if you had one point in your life to say, "THIS IS IT! the hilight of my life!" then this should be it. 

I've managed to layer 3 piano, with different tunes but progressively in line with each other.  It's the first time I used my newly purchased second hand M-Audio Oxygen8 v2.  Damn! this tool is so kick ass, but still I haven't been able to program it yet.  It's a bit complicated with all the extra adjustments that you can set.  I thought it was just basic plug and play, but you can still program it to suit your style.  I've grown attached to REASON 3.0, that almost all of my musical works pass through this software.  I've mastered several things regarding REASON, I've read manuals written by Lionel [Acid42], and it's really quite interesting.  I've just recently learned how to loop things. hahaha. stupid. hahaha...

The title's still pending,  I want this to have a video of a flower growing or a larvae turning into a butterfly, or a sunday morning, from sunrise to sunset.  A view of this timid horizon, where you can see this girl pirouetting to a sunrise in a white wash and a cyan blue effect of the sky. greenish color with old trees thats been dressed in white and a red silk tied to an old dying tree. a murder of crows thats been freezed framed and angled 45 degrees towards the sky. everything is freeze frame except this girl who dances to a freezed frame with only the sense of wind that touches the feathers or the skin of the trees. and flowers erupts from the tips of branches. damn. ever seen A Perfect Circles' Weak and Powerless? Imagine it but then remove that eerie feeling and you'll get the idea of what I want.  You could also film this on a crowded street, with all the frozen people. and some slow motions to a zoom.

I'm also trying to add some ethnic touches to it.  I stay attached to my roots as a natural Filipino, rich in culture, ethnic diversity, with uses of kulintang or a kudyapi to this track, but sad to say, that's hard for me to get a hold off, so a didgeroo [i'm not sure if that's correct] would do. with udo drums to give a newer flavor.  I've grown tired of using conga drums or bongos for that matter.  I'll try to add tabla here once again.

Soon, I'll be able to submit to QED. and hoping I could send this to SilverFilter for the Electronica Manila: TWO CD. which is supposed to come out on August, hoping he could really target that exact date.

Anyway... back to the drawing board, or to the piano to be exact. 25 keys of it.

Enjoi my past tracks. hope you like it.

nothing much..

I'm currently writing something, accompanied with a next track i've been cooking, entitled "theme song for a coffee shop drama." It's best to read the story while listening to that track..

It's kinda dramatic... he he he... and pathetic... I've been wanting to tell the story of a dream I had.  I added several juicy stuffs to a once past reality, where I fucked up a relationship where I could have been happy for the rest of my life. sad to say, I'm a fucked up person.

Along this, I'm re-editing some tracks that'll be included to an album that'll be included on a cd... There's a deadline, and I have to make it before the clock stops.  Hoping it'll be released on August.  Another 4 tracks will be released on QED records, though I have to release the un-edited version here so that those who buys the cd will have a different fold to a song.

Sigh...

I'm still collecting photos, i've already at least 15. Thanks to those who submitted.

Writing about someone is not that easy... especially if they were a big part of your life.

I'd like to thank tintin for this story. Talk about coffee shops/restaurant and its drama.

I've also added some photos I had before. hope you like it. "the taong grasa adventures".  Feel free to view and leave comments on them.

I've also added a Filipino song, Apo Hiking Society's Ewan. for those who wants it to be translated, just message me. I know most of you don't understand the Filipino [Philippine] language.

- t r o l l - [ b l e e d i n g b o y ]

motto takusan ai ni irashite kudasai....
sou kuchibashitta kimi
boku ha itooshiku omoi, daisou doujita no de,
maegami no nasu zoukei ni shinkei wo ubawarete,
kii mo motazu ie wo deta no desu.

kakute, uruwashiki kimi no moto he koeteiku omoi,
osaemashita.
"kyou ha densha de!" ichido norikaeta koro,
takamatteiku tokimeki ni makesou ni natteiru koto ni
kizukihajimemashita.

shinjitsu ha saisho de saigo na no desu...
sou kuchibashitta kimi
boku ha omoidashitsutsu,  soumei na ikikata wo
chotto manetai to kanji sassou to aruite ha,
ki tto kibishii kao wo shita no desu.

kimi wo warawasu tame ni, hohoendeiru you to omoi,
kitaemashita.
"do-a no mae ni te!" kurushimi mo, kono heya mo naku,
tsuranatteiru kagayaki ga mayakashi dearou to mo
boku ni osore nado ha nai desu.

kimi ha hitoashi saki ni hohoende, genshi wo ataemashita.
"konna boku ni!"
yaora, misakai mo naku hoshiku naru maboroshi ha
izure otoroetemo   boku ni ha utsukushiku miemasu.
kimi dake ni sore wo utaimasu.

TRANSLATION:
You spoke out to me
"Come see me more often..."
I think of you fondly,
I was so moved,
I became preoccupied with the shape of your bangs,
and left my house without a key.
that's why I supressed the feeling
so strong it could pass over all to get to you, lovely one.*1
  "Today I'll go by train"
When I had switched trains once,
I began to notice that I was losing
to the growing excitement in my heart.

You spoke out to me.
"Truth is the beginning and the end"...
As I recall those words,
I think how I'd like to live wisely the way you do,
walking at a brisk pace, I made a hard, serious face.

To make you laugh, I've decided to smile
working to get my smile right.
"At your door!"
Even if this room isn't really here,
and the many glowing shapes I saw
were tricks played on my eyes,
I won't be afraid.

You laugh before I do,
giving me a ghostly vision.

"To me, of all people!" 
even as the vision, I desire so much I'm losing myself
slowly but surely is fading away
to me it remains beautiful.
I''ll sing of it only to you.