Bleedingboy's Journals

alice [original written thoughts and songs]

alice | original songs

tell us stories of your dysfunction
running naked on a sunflower field
have you lost your name again..

sweet alice... will you wake up.
heaven is a waste of time

breathing heavy till your eyes bulge out
and swarming angels befalls to your feet
bowing down like heaven is waiting from afar
no, they won't get you now... not right now

sweet angel... wake up
open your eyes, and watch the world today
as we fall down, laying naked to the sun

breathe a heavenly wimper
that deafens out the wicked
walking this desolate ground
you bring torns to the spineless

heaven sent you down to me.
will it shatter again...
will i ever be the one you wanted

i will murder a thousand angels to see you wake up
i will hold down the demons in your head

just..

stay with me... please
i know you can hear me...
i want you to see me
please it doesn't have to be this way
now you're going away...

i will murder a thousand angels to see you wake up
i will hold down the demons in your head

sweet alice, sleep for now
i'll watch you, till you wake...

bleedingboy soundtrack | copyrighted

DVD Movie Review [ 08-31-06 ]

1. Barefoot Gibong | A film with such a heart. A slightly disfigured / handicapped guy, who loves to run. Alone, running barefooted on the streets of a small town Korea, he runs from one end to another to do simple tasks to earn some cash or food for the person he love most of his life, his mother. And with a small opportunity to win some cash, he joins a racing tournament, for him to be able to buy his mother a set of false teeth. Uneducated but never putting a out a face of anger to a slightly harsh world that surrounds him. This film is not even close to "Rainman" or "I am Sam," but it will surely make you cry. This is more of a feel-good movie. You seldom feel good about the fact that it makes you cry, but this film does offer such a heart. It offers a bit of laugh, alot of happiness, and the fact that it'll make you cry and think of all those people that cared and love for you, and wishing that you'd do the same thing for them, well, i see this as a good film, that appeals to all person. Even the heartless kind.

Shin Hyeon-joon, portraying gibong, played the part well. But I just have to say, he's a bit clean with his role. Face it, he lives in a slum, he's work were not a white collar job, he should at least have worned out clothes for this role. Supporting roles were well-portrayed enough. A bright cinematography, gives this film a glow that could shine up the scenic places and the protagonist's sense of happiness in living his life. The soundtrack was cool, but it lacks that certain push on areas where it should accompany the feeling, pushing it forward to pull those tears out of its audience's eyes. The arrangement and placement were good but I have to say, the mastering lacked this certain quality. It lacks compressiveness, giving it less grip to render a good scene. Though some parts were perfectly fitting, I found the soundtrack to be, too predictable. A crying scene, so we need a sad tune for it. But nevertheless, it still accompanied the film perfectly.

RATING: 9/10 Music and Soundtrack: 4/5

DVD Movie Review [ 08-09-06 ]

| R E C O M M E N D S |

1. 16 Blocks | A criminal turned state witness and a cop goes head to head with the most corrupt organization within the NYPD. They need to get across 16 blocks for 118 minutes to get the witness' testimony on the stand. Going against a notorious corrupt ring of policemen, well as we know, it's not a pretty thought at all. But suddenly the plot thickens. Quite an interesting twists and turns in this story, that will get your head ducking bullets.

Bruce Willis portrayed the slightly overweight old cop, usually his got this wasted look as always. You've seen it before. Imagine his image on Die Hard movie combined with Sixth sense's character, and voila, instant wasted cop. The only difference with Die Hard is he's in a good looking suit. Anyway... Mos Def, portraying a common thug who'll play the part of as a witness against a corrupt cop, he witness killing someone. He's quite fit for the role, he's got that gangster attitude, the usual tripper and a sensitive side, eager to have a better life than what he has. Plus, you've got David Morse, the typical bad guy. Mellow down, cunning, plus he looks good on a suit. I love his brown coat and light blue shirt under it, the tie fits perfectly too. I bet it'll look good on me.

The story was really good, I mean, the twists were really interesting. Well, it's just a simple action and thriller film. and if you want a movie with guns, cops and constant running? you'd want this one. Good guys and bad guys, shooting each other, it's one of those films that most men would enjoy, without the painful thinking. The sound was really great. If you've bought the DVD, you'd really love how the sound effects were perfectly carved. You could hear the gun shots as if you were there. I especially loved the panning of sounds, that when they move, you could actually hear the sound move with you. If you have those 5.1 speakers or home theater setup, and you're into sound clarity, buy this film. Perfect clear sound, beautiful soundscape, musical score that will really get you in the mood. The actors really portrayed their roles well, especially Mos Def. There was one scene where he was about to be framed, with gun and then he later on they'd shoot him, he portrayed that part well. You don't just stand or pretend scared to a gun point, you really have to fear the gun, fear death. You could really see him, giving this crying sound and bending as if he wants to get away from this all, it was really a good performance. He really can act. It's not just the look, I mean, most rappers if they played the part, it's all about being COOL, well here, you can see that he played the part of a person where he can actually commit a crime and at the same time had that emotions that most people show when they're in a state of fear, sadness... The only movie I've seen with this kind of emotion portrayed perfect, was of Saving Private Ryan.

Though I have to say, there was some inconsistencies within the movie. I had to comment with its timing. Basically, it a race through time, they have at least two hours, but they acted and set the area which overlasped the time. Considering the area, you have 16 blocks, at least more than 10 blocks they'd have to walk, right? Bruce's character was this typical obese cop, with a bad knee, plus he get shot in his hand. If you've been shot in the hand, you'd really feel the pain, you can't walk that fast. The dialogues are over the set time frame, you'd notice constant views of the clock and it doesn't add up. You'd go up a building which is located in New York, most building with elevators are 5 stories high, Ground floor has at least 4-5 meters height, succeeding floor has 3 meters, and a stair thread of .20 meters average, how fast can an obese cop, with a bad knee, go up a stair so fast? Plus you have dialogues which has at least 10 minutes worth of exchanged words, How can you comply with the 10:00 Am deadline? This was overlooked on the film though. But if you're not that attentive with this kinds of situation, it won't matter.

Other than that, the film was really good for action/thriller enthusiasts. It's a nice film, the dialogue just doesn't fit the time frame, that's all.

RATING: 8/10 Music and Soundtrack: 4/5

| decadent white |

These are but tales and not of any reality. Just a literary view on what a person might be thinking, giving him a disorder, disfuncional point of views in life. It's been part of an artwork I've been compiling in preparation for my submission for AIR program. I'm not hoping for any support on what I'm doing but please do understand that these are just representation of emotions from a different, and unaccepted by society that depicts life as breathing normally.

Not all of us have better things in life, may we be rich, famous or coming from a good family. This but to put things in a different case, a different point of view, or better yet to view your life as the victim, the culprit or the sadness that other people bear.

SUBJECT no1 | psychosis |

| Today was no oneâ�™s birthday. |

So here I was facing them, right?

And then, â�œBAM!â� Fuck you! Fuck you! And you! â�œBAM! BAM! BAM!â�

Iâ�™m so pissedâ�¦ Goddamn it, Iâ�™m so pissed.

Putang Ina ka! BAKLA! Bakla! Mga bakla, magkantutan kayo! Puwetin nyo isaâ�™t isa. Tang ina kayong lahat.

[Youâ�™re a whore of a mother! Faggot! Faggot! You all are faggots, fuck each other! Fuck each otherâ�™s ass. All of you are whores of a mother.]

These words kept ringing in my head. I just shot 4 guys, man and it was so relieving. Goddamn relieving. For year Iâ�™ve been kept like an animal to a cage. Fuck!

Slowly sobbing my tears, wiping it with blood drenched hankies that I got from that fucking faggot.

I just want respect man, I need some respectâ�¦ Yeah? Maybe some love too. Why should everyone else be happy while Iâ�™m not? Fuck man, fuck! I just shot 4 guys man.

Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦

Shit man, shit. I woke up with nothing, no hopes, dreams or anything that would compel me to live another day. Fuck manâ�¦ fuck you.

FUCK GOD! FUCK YOU! Fuck everyone whoâ�™s ever been happy.

Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦

I just shot 4 guysâ�¦ Shoved the gun up of his foreheadâ�¦ Pare. Sabog! Wham! Puta pare, it was coolâ�¦ Shit man. You can see how he bleeds pare. Speechless, eyes that stared back as if heâ�™d seen the afterlife; he went down fast enough for me to be able to point it to the rest of those faggots. Fuck man! Fuck! Ha ha ha ha ha.

Itâ�™s official now, Iâ�™ve got the gun and Iâ�™m God! I decide who lives or not.

Iâ�™d just shoot anyone who crosses my path.

â�œDudeâ�¦ We donâ�™t want any problems.â� This guy was begging for his life? So you know what I did? I shot him on his left knee.

â�œAaaahâ�, you could hear him crying like a bitch. Gripping his wounded knee, trying to inflict pressure to his knee, but that wonâ�™t save him. Iâ�™ve got the gun and I decide who lives or not! Fuck you, you and you!

Fuck you all.

Then there were these two fags, they tried to take the gun but I was faster than shit. Think Flash with an attitude. A fucking pissed off attitude.

Putang ina, Degenerates. I was pushing off this faggotâ�™s face, pressing it away to a wall, while this fuck was grabbing the gun off my hand.

Iâ�™ve had enough of this fucked up life!

Why should they be happy? Why should anyone be happy, and Iâ�™m not?

Fuck you! I woke up with nothing to care about, nobody loves me, and nobody gives a fuck!

Todayâ�™s my birthday, and I hope everybody dies! I hope today, everybody dies!

Everybody dies. Fuck.

Iâ�™m having a personal crisis and Iâ�™m taking it all out on you. Bitches, whores, degenerates, cool, famous, rich.

Everyone, everyone will die today.

Slamming him down on a brick wall with molds thatâ�™s been growing of thousand of menâ�™s piss, spit and probably blood from victims that fell by this section of the wall, I felt on top. I felt a sudden power trip. Iâ�™m God for now, and Iâ�™m in control.

Kicked the other faggot by his fucking genitals, I let a good kick to his left nuts. And as I pressed this faggot by the wall, my fingers up his eye sockets, I could hear that faggot on the left still whining like a rape victim. So, I shot him on his head.

BAM!

I felt a sudden rush. Iâ�™m the master now, and I decide who goes down and who doesnâ�™t.

Todayâ�¦ Today is my birthday. I decide who dies today.

Shut it! You fuck! My fingers punctured his eyes of his eye sockets. I was fucking cool, manâ�¦ I just want to be God, today. And this is happy. This is so fucking right! I wasnâ�™t enough. I had to use my thumbs.

â�œPleaseâ�¦ pleaseâ�¦ pleaseâ�¦ â�œHeâ�™s crying, begging me to stop. Not today. Iâ�™m not yet thru! Today everybody dies. I pressed deeper down his eye sockets. Iâ�™m having the time of my life.

â�œMama! Mama!â� Such a bitch. Most men cry for their mother whenever they know theyâ�™re dying.

I had none. Why should I care? I had none.

Iâ�™m not done.

I started kicking this guy by a corner. He was laying down, his back on the trash bin that stood 1.5 meters from the pavement thatâ�™s been blackened by grease that leaked from trucks that had been parked on this alley.

â�œPleaseâ�¦ man, Iâ�™ve had enoughâ�¦ pleaseâ�¦ todayâ�™s my birthday manâ�¦ please. I donâ�™t want to die.â�

Birthday? Fuck you! Todayâ�™s my birthday and not yours. Not anyone of you.

Not anyone of youâ�¦ I felt crying. Why should they be happy and not me?

BAM! BAM! And two more shot to end the day.

Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦

Today, no one had a birthday. Why should anyone be happy? Cakes? Parties? I never had any of those. I never had any. Not once.

Why should anyone be happy and not me?

Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦ Todayâ�¦

Today was really not a good day, nor any other day.

Why should everyone be happyâ�¦

And not me.

Not me.

| decadent white |

decÂ·aÂ·dent (dk-dnt, d-kdnt)
adj.

Being in a state of decline or decay.

Marked by or providing unrestrained gratification; self-indulgent.

often Decadent Of or relating to literary Decadence.

Depictions of emotions, flashed in white. decadent in a sense that everything has their state of decay. Happiness, sadnes, anger. Multimedia art, as I've called it. Photographs that will be edited representing emotions in various degree, and somber moods in absence of growth nor of any thing that will help us get off the case. Think of this as feelings displayed in white. Motionless but full of emotion. It's how you understand the images and sounds, plus words you'll read.

bleedingboy soundtrack: theme songs for a thousand wounded hearts [1st music album]

In my days of composing my own music, aspiring to be a musical scorer for films, commercials/ advertisements, animations, i've come to a point where i thought of releasing my works available for download and hopefully to sell it. I've always been wanting to be a real musical scorer, one that works side by side to famous indie films that are right now abundant in the market. I've specialized my skills in producing sounds that fits perfect to a scene. In making such tracks its not as easy as people had thought about it. Once, someone commented on the music we're making and said, we had no skills at all, it's basically drag and drop. Drag a loop here then it's done. Sad to inform them, it's not that easy, it requires much more skills than they've ever thought of. You should be able to create music, knowledge about instruments is really required. Say for example, you have a synth or VST plug in that can produce a violin sound, you'd still need to emulate or simulate the real thing. Most electronic music you hear, lack a certain aspect. They need to have a sense of space if you're to produce or simulate the real thing, otherwise if you want to sound electronic, you can simply do without a sense of space.

There are lots of category with regards to electronic music. We have dance/trance musicians, Industrial/Dark Electronica, Easy listening or you can create a new genre. You can be anyone you want. So long you have an ability and you really pursue making music. In my case, I choose creating soundtracks, and trying to pro-create the sound as the real thing. This requires one thing that most music listeners or starting bands don't really consider [though some are quite good to consider this], mastering the track.

I, myself is still on the point of learning things. I haven't even had the full potential of mastering such things. For example, if you played your TV and you Radio at the same time, you listen to the part where you could hear the radio commercial, simultaenous with any TV shows, and you'd notice that you'd hear the radio commercial over the TV sound. This requires knowledge with compression, this is but one of the parts you'd need to learn about mastering. Even in recording guitar tracks to your voice, need special knowledge. You'd really have to learn about all this things.

Well, that part is not really the topic here. Recently, i've made some songs or as i call it, filler. These are tracks that connects all songs together. Think of it as one short film, connected in scenic music representation. It tells the story through loops, notes instruments, giving you the sense of its drama. I've uploaded filler no. 3, entitled; 2 minutes of Self-Suffocation.

This is a filler connecting track two and three. If you've ever had those points in your life where you suffocate yourself. Suffocate in a sense that you try to blame yourself of things that you've done to fuck up your life or a situation. Things that you've been regretting, blaming your negligence or others, of things that got out of your hand. This gives you that dismantled feeling of sound, ridiculing your idea of yourself being pathetic and in some way recovering out of it. And all you need to do is really forget about it, and forgive yourself.

The album was entitled; Theme songs for a thousand wounded hearts. Songs that emotionally attacks your sadness, hurt and blames, but in the end it'll providing you a new landscape; a new world or you eat yourself up to a much more deeper hole; the darkness. The outcome of these tracks will determine my next album. A consumation of your sadness and recovery, depicted to sounds. All songs will be described in written words, for you to have an idea how and why such track was produced or why the choices of sounds was prefered to depict a point in your life's down position.

Right now, i've composed 4 tracks on this EP, and just finishing one of the tracks; Sui Fen Ni [tales of one summer's fragrant bloom]. I've posted it with my soundplayer here in Buzznet. I'll be posting all the necessary backdraft to the songs here for more informations who will be downloading the full album.

But i'm thinking... Why not sell it?

Link:

http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?songs=271091&T=8286

SUI FE NI [tales of one summer's fragrant bloom]

I've just posted the song on Acidplanet and Buzznet. This was the song I've been mentioning on my past journal pages. I was and still stuck with this song.. I can't seem to figure out what to do next. anyway.. here's some info about it.

taken from acidplanet's song page [ http://www.acidplanet.com/bleedingboysoundtrack ]

i've been busy. I've been stuck to a song, it seems its hard to compose these past few weeks. I've recently bought an M-Audio Oxygen8 v2, and tried it out on this song i've been making. It's mostly piano for now, and I have no plans of releasing it full on acidplanet. This is the last track to an EP, to be release on QED records. 'Tis an unfinished song, it's not entirely furnished.

the saddest part of falling for someone is realizing that she's not in to you. She's not meant for you, but at least the summer that covers the whole scenic view of a thousand sunflower's directing it's light. Most flowers dies down on summer or fall, but I've imagine a breeze that comes from the west to take off the heat. at least the fact that you've fallen to a sudden halt and imagine her in your best effort to convince her, you're worth the love. sad to say this is not as always. At least you have a song to accompany the drama. Think of her going away, but at least you had the best of times, when you were falling for her. Give it a smile, It's worth it.. a soundtrack to a fading sun, just across the horizon."

special thanks to Guada Salanga, [photographer]

| LINK |

http://www.acidplanet.com/artist.asp?PID=839874&t=4613

DVD Movie Review [ 07-22-06 ]

Recently, I bought several dvds. Mostly asian films, I've got tired of those hollywood films, they've resorted to visuals rather than the story lines and conventional way of making a film. Though several movies have developed their visual technique, they've compromised good story lines. Bring back movies like Romeo and Juliet, an artful display of fast forward stop and removing the sense of a prolonged scene and getting straight to the point. Though I love ridley scott's [or was it his brother?] approach with "A MAN ON FIRE." a very unique way of showing a film, with those text that pops out like commercials, and soundtracks that varied from a "mariachi's" melodrama to Trent Reznor's distorted "Oye Como Va," and a spanish version of "Mickey." giving much a unique style of both visual and ambient feel, makes you want to just go inside and be in the film. Plus a stunning acting from Denzel Washington and Dakota Fanning. NOW, if they make good movies like that again, let me know.. recently, they lack story lines, sure they've got such good dialogues, but remaking asian films and adding too much special effects on it, [i.e. The Ring], it really doesn't give us that "hooked" feeling. Either way, I still give my respect to those directors, actors and all those who are engaged in making films. I've seen several dramatic films that really grasp my attention. Sad to say when you get tired of things, you tend to search for a new satisfaction, and when you've reach this level, sometimes it's really hard to be satisfied by basic or in some case, same old styles. But nevertheless, let's continue.

note: all opinions are my own, and if people don't agree, or are offended of it, this is not my intention. All opinions are neither right or wrong, they simply express one's point of view.

| R E C O M M E N D S |

1. Daisy | it has guns, girl, and painting? what the fuck? ok... ok... this is a good film. PG-13, so bring your kids from 13 and up. I love the mala- MONSTER [Anime] style of telling a story, they let all characters meet first then they subdivide it, and give all 3 characters, to tell their story in their own point of view. The visual color used is really dramatic, plus a nice choice for a film-setting placed around Europe. If you know the movie "SASSY GIRL", then you'd want to watch this, the girl is actually, that sassy girl. She'd grown and I really would say, had improved her talent, especially with parts that doesn't require her to speak. Set on a European plaza as a backdraft, an assassin and an interpol fell inlove with the same girl. The story revolves, and you'd really want to see it.

RATING: 10/10 Music and Soundtrack: 4/5

2. Shinobi | if you're into that hit anime series on TV, NARUTO. You'll love this one. I was kind of frustrated, over the fact that it was less than interesting or "breathtaking" as Azumi was. I was thinking, this is part of Japanese History. It turns out it was just a basic beautification of a culture. Shinobi, as considered to be a dark arts common among ninja clans. But sad to say, it wasn't informative, but rather just some plain, slash, dash and kill, with matching powers that can equal to immortality. Though each ninja has different and interesting skills, I wasn't that much amazed about it. But nevertheless, its one of those film that you'd just want to watch because of its cool effect, perfect for younger generations. Oh, think of it as Brad Pitt [OCEAN 11's style] cross-over with Azumi. They've got a good sense of fashion for ninjas, hahahaha. I thought ninjas only wore black and everything is black. If they wore tie, its black. Nails? black. I bet their teeth are black too. hahaha. Just kidding. Still if you just want to relax and enjoy a good movie, this one will satisfy you. keeps you off that chatting channels waiting for someone to turn on their webcams and strip in front a thousand audience, crossing the seas and ocean.

RATING: 7/10 Music and Soundtrack: 3/5

rasta / patois dictionary

I love bob marley's music. gets you in the mood for your roots, not in a sense that you have to pretend rasta, no. it just makes you want to love freedom, tracing back your own identity. now that's the sense of what he's been singing about. a man's struggle for freedom. a man's look for peace amidst the chaos and corruption that's been gripping us. nescience, is not an option. we must understand how rasta language is spoken, what it means. so here, i've posted a dictionary for people to be able to learn rasta or patois language.

[copied from: http://www.rockol.it/rockol/reggae/dizio.htm]

Sources:

Reggae International, Stephen Davis, Peter Simon, R&B, 1982

KSBR 88.5 FM, Laguna Beach, CA. Handout.

posted on rec.music.reggae

reggae archives maintainer (Mike Pawka)

Understanding Jamaican Patois, L. Emilie Adams, Kingston

Richard Dennison

Edit:

[ Mike Pawka] [ Tokai university in Japan, Michio Ogata ]

A DOOR
outdoors. (5)

AGONY
the sensations felt during sex (6)

AN
than (5)

ARMAGEDDON
the biblical final battle between the forces of good and evil (1)

BABYLON
1. the corrupt establishment, the "system, Church and State" 2. the police, a policeman (1)

BAD
good, great (2)

BADNESS
hooligan behavior, violence for its own sake (1)

BAFAN
clumsy; awkward (5)

BAFANG
a child who did not learn to walk the 1st 2-7 years. (5)

BAG-O-WIRE
a betrayer (1)

BAGGY
underpants for a woman or child. (5)

BAKRA
white slavemaster, or member of the ruling class in colonial days. Popular etymology: "back raw" (which he bestowed with a whip.) (5)

BALD-HEAD
a straight person; one without dreadlocks; one who works for babylon (2)

BAMBU
rolling paper (1)

BAMMY
a pancake made out of cassava, after it has been grated and squeezed to remove the bitter juice. (5)

BANDULU
bandit, criminal, one living by guile (1)

a BANDULU BIZNESS
is a racket, a swindle. (5)

BANGARANG
hubbub, uproar, disorder, disturbance. (5)

BANKRA
a big basket, including the type which hangs over the sides of a donkey. (5)

BANS
from bands; a whole lot, a great deal, nuff, whole heap. (5)

BAT
butterfly or moth. English bat, the flying rodent, is a rat-bat. (5)

BATTY
bottom; backside; anus. (5)

BATTYBWOY
a gay person (6)

BEAST
a policeman (1)

BEX
vex (verb), or vexed (adjective). (5)

BISSY
cola nut. (5)

BLY
chance, "must get a bly", "must get a chance". (4)

BOBO
fool. (5)

BRAA from BREDDA;
brother. (5)

BRAATA
a little extra; like the 13th cookie in a baker's dozen; or an extra helping of food. In musical show it has come to be the encore. (5)

BREDREN
one's fellow male Rastas (1)

BRINDLE
to be angry (6)

BRINKS
title given to a man who is supplying a woman with money (6)

BUBU
fool. (5)

BUCKY
home-made gun (2)

BUFU-BUFU
fat, swollen, blubbery; too big; clumsy or lumbering.(5)

BUGUYAGA
a sloppy, dirty person, like a bum or tramp. (5)

BULL BUCKA
a bully (1)

BULLA
a comon sugar and flour cookie or small round cake, sold everywhere in Jamaica. (5)

BUMBA CLOT, (TO GET) BUN
to have one's spouse or girl/boy-friend cheat on oneself, to be cheated of something (6)

RAS CLOT,BLOOD CLOT
curse words (1)

BUMBO
bottom; backside. A common curse word, especially in combination with CLOT (cloth), a reference to the days before toilet paper. (5)

BUNKS
to knock or bump against, from "to bounce",

BUNKS MI RES,
catch my rest, take a nap. (5)

(THE) CAT
a woman's genitals (6)

CARD
to fool someone (6)

CEASE & SEKKLE!
stop everything and relax! (6)

CERACE
a ubiquitous vine used for boiling medicinal tea and for bathing. It is proverbial for its bitterness.(5)

CHA! or CHO!
a disdainful expletive (1) pshaw! (2) very common, mild explanation expressing impatience, vexation or
disappointment. (5)

CHAKA-CHAKA
messy, disorderly, untidy. (5)

CHALICE or CHILLUM
a pipe for smoking herb, usually made from coconut shell and tubing, used ritually by Rastas (1)

CHEAP
just as cheap, just as well. (5)

CHIMMY
chamber pot. (5)

CHO
very common, mild explanation expressing impatience,vexation or disappointment. (5)

CLAP
hit, break, stride (1)

CLOT 1. cloth, an essential part of most Jamaican bad words, such as bumbo clot, rass clot, blood clot, etc. The essence of Jamaican cursing seems to be nastiness,rather than the blashemy or sexuality which is characteristic of the metropolitan countries.2. to hit or strike - from the verb "to clout". (5)

COCO
a potato-like edible root, known elsewhere as the taro or the eddo. It was brought to Jamaica from the South Pacific. This is completely distinct from cocoa, usually called chocolate. (5)

COIL
money (6)

COME DUNG
come down, get ready (as to prepare to play a tune) (6)

COME EEN LIKE
to seem as if; to resemble. (5)

CONTROL
to be in charge of, responsible for, to own; to take (1)

COOL RUNNINGS
a greeting; things are going smoothly (1)

COOLIE
the traditional Jamaican epithet for East Indians. It is never used It is never used for Chinese Jamaicans. Usually in the form coolie-man or coolie-oman. It is not considered polite today anymore than the term nega, but it is still used widely in rural areas. (5)

CORK UP
jammed, filled, crowded (2)

CORN
1. marijuana 2. money 3. a bullet (1)

COTCH
verb (cotch up), to support something else, as with a forked stick; to balance something or place it temporarily; to beg someone a cotch, can be a place on a crowded bus seat or bench; or it may mean to cotch a while, to stay somewhere temporarily. (5)

COTTA
a roll of cloth or vegetation placed on top of the head to cushion the skull from the weight of a head load. (5)

CRAB
aside from it's usual meaning, it is a verb meaning to scratch or claw. (5)

CRAVEN
greedy (5)

CRIS
crisp; popularly used for anything brand-new, slick-looking. (5)

CRISSARS
crisp, brand-new (2)

CROSSES
problems, vexations, trials; bad luck, misfortunes. (5)

CRUCIAL
serious, great, "hard", "dread" (1)

CUBBITCH
covetous. (5)

CULTURE
reflecting or pertaining to the roots values and traditions highly respected by the Rastas (1)

CUSS-CUSS
a quarrel or fracas, with lots of cursing. (5)

CUT YAI
to cut your eye at somebody is a very common means of expressing scorn or contempt, for example; one catches the other person's eye, then deliberatly turns one's own eyes as an insult. (5)

CUTCHIE
pipe for communal smoking. (5)

CYAAN
cannot, can't (6)

D.J.
a person who sings or scats along with dub music, sometimes called "toasting" (2)

DAAL
split peas, usually a thick soup, from Indian cuisine, from Hindi. (5)

DADA
father (6)

DALLY
executive zig-zag movements on wheels (2) or on foot (6) to ride a bicycle or motorbike with a weaving motion, as when ones weaves around potholes. (5)

DAN DADA
the highest of DON'S (6)

DAN
than (5)

DARKERS
sunglasses (6)

DASHEEN
a big soft yam-like root, often slightly greyish when cooked. It is related to the coco, but one eats the "head" instead of the tubers. (5)

DAWTA a girl, woman, "sister", girlfriend (1)

DEADERS meat, meat by-products (1)

DEESTANT
decent. (5)

DEGE or DEGE-DEGE
adjective, little, skimpy, measly, only, as in a two dege-dege banana. (5)

DEH
there (place) (6)

DI
the (6)

DINKI
a kind of traditional dance at funerals or "nine nights" ("set-ups"); now popular among school children. (5)

DIS or DIS YA
this (6)

DJEW
as a verb, rain a djew; as a noun, djew rain. It means a light rain or drizzle. (5)

DOGHEART
a person who is especially cold and cruel (6)

DOLLY
executive zig-zag movements on wheels (2)

DON
one who is respected, master of a situation (6)

DONKYA
from "don't care"; careless, sloppy, lacking ambition, etc. (5)

DOONDOOS
an albino. (5)

DOWNPRESSOR
preferred term for oppressor (1)

(TO) DRAW CARD
the act of fooling someone (6)

DREAD
1. a person with dreadlocks
2. a serious idea or thing
3. a dangerous situation or person
4. the "dreadful power of the holy"
5. experientially, "awesome, fearful confrontation of a people with a primordial but historically denied
racial selfhood" (1)

DREADLOCKS
1. hair that is neither combed nor cut 2. a person with dreadlocks (1)

DREADY
a friendly term for a fellow dread (1)

DUB
a roots electronic music, created by skillful, artistic re-engineering of recorded tracks (2)

DUCK-ANTS
white ants, or termites. (5)

DUKUNU
sweet corn-meal dumplings boiled in wrapped leaves. (5)

DUNDUS
an albino. (5)

DUNS,DUNSA
money (1)

DUPPY
a ghost (1)

DUTCHY
dutch cooking pot, low round-bottomed heavy pot. (5)

EASE-UP
to forgive, to lighten up (6)

EVERYTING COOK & CURRY
all is well, all is taken care of (6)

FAS'
to be fast with, meaning to be rude, impertinent, to meddle with sombody's business, to be forward, etc.(5)

FASSY
eczema-like scratchy sores on the skin; also a verb meaning to cause oneself to be covered with fassy by scratching. (5)

FAYVA
to favour, resemble, or look like; "fayva like" also means "it seems as if". (5)

FEEL NO WAY
don't take offense, don't be sorry, don't worry (1)

FENKY-FENKY
(from finicky) choosy, proud, stuck-up. (5)

FIESTY
impudent, rude, out of order, cheeky. (5)

FIRST LIGHT
tomorrow (1)

(HIM A) FISH
a gay person (6)

FIT
when used of fruits and vegetables, it means ready to pick, full grown, though not necessarily fully ripe. (5)

FORWARD
1. to go, move on, set out 2. in the future (1)

FRONTA
tobacco leaf used to roll herb (1)

FUCKERY
wrong, unfair (6)

FULLNESS, TO THE FULLNESS
completely, absolutely, totally (1)

FUNDS
Money (6)

GAAN TO BED
an adverbial phrase; following a verb of liking or loving, it has a superlative meaning; Can be used in any context, such as "I love hafu yam gaan to bed!". (5)

GANJA
herb, marijuana (1)

GANSEY
t-shirt, any knit shirt (2)

(TO) GET SALT
to be thwarted, to encounter misfortune (6)

GATES
home, yard (1)

GENERAL
cool operator (1)

GIG
spinning top. (5)

GLAMITY
a woman's genitals (6)

GORGON
outstanding dreadlocks (1)

(DON) GORGON
outstanding dreadlocks, a person who is respected (2,6)

GRAVALICIOUS
greedy, avaricious. (5)

GRINDSMAN
one who displays great prowess in bed(6)

GROUNATION
large, island-wide meeting and celebration of Rastas (1)

GROUND
home, yard (4)

HACKLE
to hassle, bother, worry, trouble. As a noun, hackling.(5)

HAFFI
to have to... (6)

HAIL
a greeting (1)

HARD
excellent, proficient, skillful, uncompromising (1)

HEETCH
itch. Many such words could be listed under H, as initial H is added to scores of words at will. (5)

HERB
marijuana (1)

HIEZ-HAAD
ears-hard, thick skulled, stubborn, unwilling or unable to hear. (5)

HIEZ
ears. (5)

HITEY-TITEY
upper class, high tone, "stoosh". (5)

HOOD
penis. (5)

HORTICAL (DON)
respected, acclaimed (6)

HOT-STEPPER
fugitive from jail or gun court (1)

I-MAN
I, me, mine (1)

I-NEY
a greeting (2)

I-REY
1. a greeting 2. excellent, cool, highest (1)

I-SHENCE
herb (1)

I-TAL
vital, organic, natural, wholesome; refers to way of cooking and way of life (1) in colors, red, green and gold (2) I replaces "me", "you", "my"; replaces the first syllable of seleted words (1) I and I, I&I& I, me, you and me, we (1)Rastafari speech eliminates you, me we, they, etc., as divisive and replaces same with communal I and I. I and I embraces the congregation in unity with the Most I (high) in an endless circle of inity (unity). (3)

IEZ-HAAD ears-hard, thick skulled, stubborn, unwilling or unable to hear. (5)

IEZ
ears. (5)

IGNORANT
short-tempered, easy to vex, irate. (5)

INNA DI MORROWS
tomorrow (6)

INNA
In the (4)

ISMS and SKISMS
negative term denoting Babylon's classificatory systems (1)

ITES
1. the heights
2. a greeting
3. the color red (1) great (2)

JA, JAM-DOWN
Jamaica (1)

JACKASS ROPE
homegrown tobacco, twisted into a rope. (5)

JAH KNOW Lord knows (1)

JAH
God; possibly derived as a shortened form of Jahweh or Jehovah (1) Jah Ras Tafari, Haille Selassie, King of Kings, Lord of Lords, conquering Lion of Judah; rastas revere Haile Selassie as the personification of the Almighty (2)

JAMMIN
to be having a good time, to be dancing calypso/soca (6)

JANGA
shrimp, crayfish. (5)

JELLY
a young coconut, full of jelly. (5)

JOOK
to pierce or stick, as with a thorn or a long pointed stick. (5)

JUDGIN'
adjective, everyday or ordinary clothes or shoes worn in the yard or in the bush, as in "judgin' boot". Also as a verb, to judge, with a similar meaning. (5)

JUU
as a verb, rain a juu; as a noun, juu rain. It means a light rain or drizzle. (5)

KALI; COOLY
marijuana (1)

KALLALOO
a dark, green leafy vegetable, very nutritious and cheap. (5)

KATA
a roll of cloth or vegetation placed on top of the head to cushion the skull from the weight of a head load. (5)

KEMPS
a little bit, a tiny piece, from skimps. (5)

KISS ME NECK!
common exclamation of surprise. (5)

KISS TEET
to kiss one's teeth or to suck one's teeth is to make the very common hissing noise of disappoval, dislike, vexation or disappointment. (5)

KOUCHIE
bowl of a chalice or chillum pipe (1)

KRENG-KRENG
an old-fashioned meat rack, hung up high over the fire to catch the smoke. (5)

KU DEH!
look there! (5)

KU PAN
look at. (5)

KU YA!
look here! (5)

KU
verb, look! (5)

KYA
1. to care; "donkya", don't care, careless; "no kya" means no matter, as in "no kya weh im tun", no matter where he turns.
2. to carry. (5)

KYAAN
can't. (5)

KYAI
to carry. (5)

KYAN
can. (5)

LABA-LABA
to chat, gab; gossip. (5)

LABRISH
gossip, chit-chat. (5)

LAMBSBREAD
a form of high-quality marijuana (1)

LARGE
respected (6)

LEGGO BEAS'
wild, disorderly, like a let-go beast. (5)

LICKY-LICKY
fawning, flattering, obsequious. (5)

LILLY BIT
little bit, tiny. (5)

LION
a righteous Dread (1) a great soul (2)

LITTLE MORE
see you later (2)

(TOO) LIKKY-LIKKY
title given to those who like to eat any food they encounter , without discretion (6)

MAAMA MAN
a gay person, an effeminate man, a weakling (6)

MACA
thorn, prickle. (5)

MADDA
mother (6)

MAFIA
big-time criminals (1)

MAGA DOG
mongrel (4)

MAGA
thin (2) (from meagre) (5)

MARINA
a man's undershirt, guernsey; a tank-top style. (5)

MASCOT
denoting inferior status (2)

MASH IT UP
a huge success (1)

MASH UP, MASH DOWN
destroy (1)

MASSIVE
respected (6), used with LARGE to add emphasis

MONKS
amongst. (5)

MORE TIME
see you later (1)

MR. T
the boss (2)

MUS MUS
a rat (4)

MY BABY MOTHER/FATHER
the mother/father of my child (1,6)

NANA
midwife; nanny or nurse. (5)

NASH
female genatalia (6)

NATTY, NATTY DREAD, NATTY CONGO
1. dreadlocks
2. a person with dreadlocks (1)

NAZARITE
Ancient Hebrew meaning to "separate", consecrated, set apart by choice and devotion (1)

NIYABINGHI
1. "death to all black and white oppressors"
2. East African warriors who resisted colonialdomination
3. large Rastafarian meeting and spiritual gathering
4. referring to orthodox, traditional Rastas
5. a variety of drumming (1)

NIYAMEN
name for Rastas referring to Niyabinghi warriors of East Africa (1)

NO KYA
no matter, as in "no kya weh im tun", no matter where he turns. (5)

NO TRUE?
isn't it so? (1)

NYAM
to eat. (5)

(TOO) NYAMI-NYAMI
title given to those who like to eat any food they encounter, without discretion (6)

NYING'I-NYING'I
nagging, whining. (5)

O-DOKONO
boiled maize bread. (5)

OBEAH
traditional African "science", relating to matters of the spirit and spirits, spells, divinations, omens, extra-sensory knowledge, etc. (5)

OHT FI
about to, on the vergeof, as in "it hoht fi rain", it is about to rain, it looks like rain. (5)

ONE LOVE
a parting phrase, expression of unity (1)

ONE-ONE
adjective, one by one, thus any small amount. (5)

ONGLE
only. (5)

PAKI
calabash, gourd. (5)

PAPAA
pawpaw, or papaya melon. (5)

PATU
owl. (5)

PEEL-HEAD
bald-headed, usually certain chickens or vultures. (5)

PEENYWALLY
a kind of large fire fly, actually a type of flyig beetle. (5)

PEER
avocado pear. (5)

PICKY, PICKY HEAD
brush haircut (3)

PICKY-PICKY
1. finicky or choosy
2. Used of uncombed hair just starting to turn into dreadlocks. (5)

PIKNY
pickaninny, child. (5)

PINDA
peanut. (5)

PIRA
a low wooden stool. (5)

PITY-ME-LIKL
a type of very tiny red ant whose bite is so hot and long-lasting it resembles a sting. (5)

POCOMANIA, POCO
christian revival, distinct drum rhythm (2)

POLYTRICKS
politics (by Peter Tosh) (6)

POLYTRICKSTERS
politicians (by Peter Tosh) (6)

POPPY-SHOW
from puppet show, it is used in the idiom, tek smadi mek poppy-show, which means to make fun of someone or shame them, making them look ridiculous. (5)

PUM-PUM
a woman's genitals (6)

PUNAANI or PUNNI
a woman's genitals (6)

PUPPALICK
somersalt. (5)

PUTTIN' AWAY
a preposition, meaning "except for", or "except". (5)

PYAA-PYAA
sickly, weak; feeble, of no account. (5)

PYU
from spew; verb used of running sores or anything similarly dripping or oozing. (5)

QUIPS
1. nouns (from squips) a tiny piece or amount.
2. verb, the Jamaican art of washing clothes making a "squips-squips" sound. (5)

RAATID!
a common mild expletive of surprise or vexation, as in "to raatid!". It is likely a polite permutation of "ras", a la "gosh" or "heck". (5)

RANKING
highly respected (1)

RAS or RASS
backside, rump; a common curse is to rass! or rass clot! a title used by Rastafarians meaning "lord" or "head". (5)

(TO) RAAS
"really?", "damn!"(6)

RASTA, RASTAFARIAN
a follower of Marcus Garvey who worships the Almighty in the person of haile Selassie

RAT-BAT
bat, the night-flying rodent. (5)

RATCHET
a switchblade knife popular in Jamaica (1)

RED
1. very high on herb
2. mulatto color (1)

RENK
1. foul-smelling, raw-smelling.
2. out of order, impudent, as in a rank-imposter. "Yu too renk!". (5)

RHAATID
a curse-exclamation, similar to "what the hell" (6)

ROCKERS
reggae music (1) reggae music as it is played today, the latest sound (2)

ROOTS
1. derived from the experience of the common people, natural indigenous
2. a greeting
3. name for a fellow Rasta (1)

ROTI
flat Indian pan breads. (5)

RUDE BOY
a criminal, a hard hearted person, a tough guy (6)

RUN-DUNG
food cooked in coconut juice, obtained after grating the dry coconut meat and squeezing it in water, thus extracting the coconut cream. (5)

RYAL
royal. (5)

SAL'TING
1. dishes cooked with saltfish or meat.
2. that part of the meal which is served with the "food" (starchy food, ground food).
3. by some strange extension, the female organ, often simply called "sal". (5)

SALT
adjective, broke, empty-handed, low on funds or food, as in "tings salt" or "i' salt". (5)

SAMBO
the colour between brown and black; someone who is a cross between a mullatto (brown) and a black. (5)

SAMFAI MAN
trickster, conman. (5)

SATA
to rejoice, to meditate, to give thanks and praise. (5)

SATTA
sit, rest, meditate (1) relax (6)

SCIENCE
obeah, witchcraft (1)

SCIENTIST
occult practitioner (2)

SCOUT
denoting inferior status (6)

SCREECHIE
to sneak by (6)

SCREW
to scowl, to be angry (1)

SEEN
I understand, I agree (1)

SEEN?
Do you understand? (6)

SHAG
home-cured tobacco, straight from the field. (5)

SHAKE OUT
leave without haste, casually (2)

SHEG (UP)
verb, to bother, as in "all sheg up", all hot and bothered, or or spoiled up (as of work). (5)

SHEG-UP
to be messed up, ruined (6)

SHOOB
to shove. (5)

SIDUNG
sit down (6)

SIGHT?
do you understand? (1)

SINKL-BIBLE
the aloevera plant. (5)

SINSEMILLA, SENSIE
popular, potent, seedless, unpollinated female strain of marijuana (1)

SINTING
something. (5)

SIPPLE
slippery; slimy. (5)

SISTER, SISTREN
a woman, a friend, woman Rastafarians (1)

SITTIN'
something. (5)

SKANK
to dance to reggae music (1) to move with cunning, ulterior motives (2)

SKIL
kiln, as in "limeskil". (5)

SKIN
rolling paper (1)

SKIN YOUR TEETH
smile (1)

SLABBA-SLABBA
big and fat, slobby, droopy. (5)

SLACKNESS
lewd, vulgar lyrics popular in DJ singing (4)

SMADI
somebody. (5)

SO-SO
only, solely, unaccompanied. (5) weak, pallid (6)

SOFT
not well done, amateurish; unable to cope (1) broke, no money (2)

SPLIFF
large, cone-shaped marijuana cigarette (1)

SPRING
to sprout, as of yams or cocos, making them inedible. (5)

STAR
common term of affection, camaraderie (1)

STEP
to leave, to depart (1) briskly, quickly (2)

STOOSH/STOSHUS
upper class, high tone, "hitey-titey". (5)

STRING UP
a muscial rehearsal (2)

STRUCTURE
body, health (1)

SU-SU
gossip, the sound of wispering. (5)

SUFFERER
a poor person stuggling to survive (2)

SUPM, SINTING
something (6)

TACK
bullet (2)

TAKARI/TANKARI
stewed spicy pumpkin. (5)

TALL
long (1)

TAM
deep woolen hat, used by Dreads to cover their locks (1,6)

TAN'
to stand; usually used in the sense of "to be". "A so im tan", "that is what he is like"; "tan deh!" or "yu tan deh!" means "just you wait!". "Tan tedy", stand steady, means "hold still". (5)

TARRA-WARRA
a polite way of expressing omitted bad words, a verbal asterisk. (5)

TATU
a little thatched hut, often made of bamboo. (5)

TEETH
bullets (2)

TEIF
a thief, to steal (6)

TOTO
coconut cake. (5)

TRACE
to curse or speak abusively to someone. (5)

TRANSPORT
vehicle (1)

TUMPA
from stump, as in "tumpa-foot man", a one-foot man. (5)

TUNTI
female organ. (5)

UNO/UNU
you-all. (5)

UPFUL
postitive, encouraging (2)

UPHILL
positive, righteous (1)

UPTOWN
the upper classes (1)

VEX
to get angry (1)

WA DAY
adverbial phrase, the other day. (5)

WA MEK?
why?

WAKL
wattle, a kind of woven bamboo work used to make house walls. (5)

WANGA-GUT
hungry-belly. (5)

WARRA-WARRA
politely omitted bad words, same as "tarra-warra". (5)

WH'APPEN?
what's happening? (4)

WHEELS
vehicle (6)

WHOLE HEAP
a lot (1)

WINJY
thin and sickly looking. (5)

WIS
vine, liana, from withe. (5)

WOLF
a non-rasta dreadlocks (2)

WOOD
penis. (5)

YA NO SEE IT?
you know? (1)

YA
hear, or here. (5)

YABBA
a big clay pot. (5)

YAHSO
here (place) (6)

YAI
eye. (5)

YARD home, one's gates (1) tenement (2)

YOUTH
a child, a young man, an immature man (1)

ZION
Ethiopia, Africa, the Rastafarian holy land (1)

ZUNGU PAN
zinc pan. (5)

lame... lame... lame.. goddamnit! lame!

everything is lame... i must have counted the eggs before it even hatched. fuck!

i'm stuck! why? because I'm stuck! it's the common problem in making music... there are lots of dead ends. Now i feel like i should leave that track again. It's been awhile since that happened. I'm starting to give up on a track that i found to be so interesting. Why? i don't know why. probably the fact, that my inspiration, sucks so much ass.

I give up!

I want to do hardcore music again, but i have to finish the fourth and last track for me to be able to release with Electronica Manila: two and QED records. but instead, i'm skipping hoops and tracks again... Goddamn it.

No! don't tell me prayers would do with this... it has nothing to do with praying, it's simple as, I want to hold the only moments I treasure, regarding a track and channel it as a note on a midi sheet. then reproduce, emulate, assimilate the sound and you shouldn't be succumbed within the apocrypha of your notes. they're just notes to a song, they're not your life.

as fall out boy's song stated "i'm just a nudge in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song."

she is but a line in my song!

I miss zhang ping! if she was here, and i could see her, i'd be able to make the track without holding back. At least that girl gave me inspiration. While this one, God, she's lamer than a post, she's too numb for me. she can't feel me, she can't see me. and worst of all, I don't need her, really. She's just an excuse, a scapegoat. but reality is, she's not my interest. if she was before, not anymore.

I'm bored of her... I'm glad I don't see her everyday...

I'm tired of her... I'm glad I don't need her in anyway...

But isn't it? when you're bored, you make music?

["you see i'm bored, but you move me, like music..."] -deftone; MX.

But never the less, I have no choice but to cancel the music... Fragrance lost in a mist...

I'm tired of that sound.. hope it sucks donkey dick! Got to find a certain shape to a song... Got to find the meaning to create sound again... again... again... I can't find her... I can't find her... I need something... Give me anything... I need to make music... I can't find her... I need to be... I can't find her.. Fuck, why won't you let me! I can't find her... I want to be... I can't find her... I wish to be... I can't find her...

I CAN'T FIND HER!

alas, i'm back to what i'm supposed to be.

[ and the silence pricked my eardrum, much more deafening than the noises i make.]

meaning of swastika.

Recently I asked a question to a friend linked here and saw that her school's name was a primary school with SWASTIKA as part of its name. I was really shock, WOAH? is this an anti-semite school? Sorry to question such thing. But further inquiries demands research before I talked and wonder about it in a bad way. So as part of my research I've searched the net and found the history behind the SWASTIKA symbol.

Swastika, is suppose to represent power, sun, good luck. Now thinking back, we know that Swastika was a symbol that gone wrong due to some men's ideology. I never really hated Hitler's idea of struggle but the part where he started killing people, inspiring racism, there I stood against such things. I normally don't talk about this but things need to be clarified.

The Oldest Known Symbol

The swastika is an ancient symbol that has been used for over 3,000 years. (That even predates the ancient Egyptian symbol, the Ankh!) Artifacts such as pottery and coins from ancient Troy show that the swastika was a commonly used symbol as far back as 1000 BCE.

During the following thousand years, the image of the swastika was used by many cultures around the world, including in China, Japan, India, and southern Europe. By the Middle Ages, the swastika was a well known, if not commonly used, symbol but was called by many different names:

China - wan
England - fylfot
Germany - Hakenkreuz
Greece - tetraskelion and gammadion
India - swastika

Though it is not known for exactly how long, Native Americans also have long used the symbol of the swastika.

The Original Meaning

The word "swastika" comes from the Sanskrit svastika - "su" meaning "good," "asti" meaning "to be," and "ka" as a suffix.

Until the Nazis used this symbol, the swastika was used by many cultures throughout the past 3,000 years to represent life, sun, power, strength, and good luck.

Even in the early twentieth century, the swastika was still a symbol with positive connotations. For instance, the swastika was a common decoration that often adorned cigarette cases, postcards, coins, and buildings. During World War I, the swastika could even be found on the shoulder patches of the American 45th Division and on the Finnish air force until after World War II.

From Jennifer Rosenberg, http://history1900s.about.com/cs/swastika/a/swastikahistory.htm

If you read what is written above, we can see how the symbol symbolizes the good part of life. bring power, promoting good and giving people luck in battle, struggle and a search for strength.

Then further on, as I've learned and analyze the world's history, people used it to represent race against other races. And as noted to several people against such symbol, and retaliated in forms of documents, articles and songs. Attacking the very source of strength, a part of a flag that stood against every other things.

Rage Against the Machine's song Bullet in Your Head included the swastika as part of a song, "A YELLOW RIBBON instead of a SWASTIKA..." the use of the color yellow against or in replace of a swastika, was a change of symbolism to remove the hate and death it left after a war that tore the world apart.

in further words from Jennifer Rosenberg;

A Change in Meaning

In the 1800s, countries around Germany were growing much larger, forming empires; yet Germany was not a unified country until 1871. To counter the feeling of vulnerability and the stigma of youth, German nationalists in the mid-nineteenth century began to use the swastika, because it had ancient Aryan/Indian origins, to represent a long Germanic/Aryan history.

By the end of the nineteenth century, the swastika could be found on nationalist German volkisch periodicals and was the official emblem of the German Gymnasts' League.

In the beginning of the twentieth century, the swastika was a common symbol of German nationalism and could be found in a multitude of places such as the emblem for the Wandervogel, a German youth movement; on Joerg Lanz von Liebenfels' antisemitic periodical Ostara; on various Freikorps units; and as an emblem of the Thule Society.

Hitler and the Nazis

In 1920, Adolf Hitler decided that the Nazi Party needed its own insignia and flag. For Hitler, the new flag had to be "a symbol of our own struggle" as well as "highly effective as a poster." (Mein Kampf, pg. 495)

On August 7, 1920, at the Salzburg Congress, this flag became the official emblem of the Nazi Party.

In Mein Kampf, Hitler described the Nazis' new flag: "In red we see the social idea of the movement, in white the nationalistic idea, in the swastika the mission of the struggle for the victory of the Aryan man, and, by the same token, the victory of the idea of creative work, which as such always has been and always will be anti-Semitic." (pg. 496-497)

Because of the Nazis' flag, the swastika soon became a symbol of hate, antisemitism, violence, death, and murder.

What Does the Swastika Mean Now?

There is a great debate as to what the swastika means now. For 3,000 years, the swastika meant life and good luck. But because of the Nazis, it has also taken on a meaning of death and hate.

These conflicting meanings are causing problems in today's society. For Buddhists and Hindus, the swastika is a very religious symbol that is commonly used. Chirag Badlani shares a story about one time when he went to make some photocopies of some Hindu Gods for his temple. While standing in line to pay for the photocopies, some people behind him in line noticed that one of the pictures had a swastika. They called him a Nazi.

Unfortunately, the Nazis were so effective at their use of the swastika emblem, that many do not even know any other meaning for the swastika. Can there be two completely opposite meanings for one symbol?

In ancient times, the direction of the swastika was interchangeable as can be seen on an ancient Chinese silk drawing.

Some cultures in the past had differentiated between the clockwise swastika and the counter-clockwise sauvastika. In these cultures the swastika symbolized health and life while the sauvastika took on a mystical meaning of bad-luck or misfortune.

But since the Nazis use of the swastika, some people are trying to differentiate the two meanings of the swastika by varying its direction - trying to make the clockwise, Nazi version of the swastika mean hate and death while the counter-clockwise version would hold the ancient meaning of the symbol, life and good-luck. function obL(a){if(a

Seeing this symbols on movies and documentaries used as symbols by Neo-Nazi gave me the latter idea of its meaning. As we've known it as broken cross. A symbol that could tackle hate for us, but if we've researched such thing we now know that such symbol was used for good purposes too. As I've seen it on movies like The believer, American History X, powerful movies who tried to change their world from hateful idealism and try to fix things of from the broken pieces that was pushed in their heads. Do watch the film. They'll give you ideas of what I'm talking about.

This is but an article to clarify things, this is not to offend or provoke any racial discrimination, hate or any other things. I'm a man who believes could be attain if we put aside our differences, after all, sting had sang in one of his song, "we share the same biology, regardless of ideology..." [ Sting - Russian ]. We share the same planet after all